It's so hard to see you
To be so close, yet so far
I'm learning how it feels to watch you from a distance,
To see you happy
To let you be,
To find my place in your new life. (nowhere)
It's hard to know
I'm thinking of you so much
But you are not thinking,
Not remembering what we once had.
It's hard when we can't even talk
When I have to leave without saying goodbye
Because even those simple things are too complicated now.
It's hard to wake up in the early morning
And not know what to do but cry.
It's frustrating that I can't do anything
That I have to let you think
I don't still love you.
To smile when I want to cry
To not tell you anything.
Summer 2007